灰

好久没发文了...不是没东西写，只是觉得好累好累。不想写，更不想思考。我也想看着想着美好的，充满正能量的一面走下去...可是今天，就今天...可以让我灰一天吗？因为，累了。


各种疼痛和不适，堆积在一起，搞得我不能专心读书。吃药，结果对药物敏感，整个人都肿起来。找医生帮忙，接着让身体暴露在辐射和恐怖的噪音下，结果发现更多之前不知道的问题。有时候我真的想放弃求医的努力...因为由始至终根本没解决到问题，反而让我更烦恼，承受更大的压力。


又翻开新的一页...本来以为应该没什么大问题...怎知道又再次让别人把我推出去啃死猫。回想起来其实觉得很不公平，有些愤怒。大家都站在同一个点上，为什么就是要我去承受？本来还想坚决反对，可是死猫已经啃了下去，就算了。反正三个星期不会很漫长。不要告诉我这样可以学习什么什么之类的鬼话，我现在火烧得很旺，不想听道理~


最近也发现，原来我以为的事情，真的只是我以为而已。其实事实早已摆在眼前，我们为什么不去正视？是害怕还是早已放弃？现在我也没有多余的力气去理会...


看了就当是看疯子在发疯吧。

The One That Got Away by Katy Perry

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radio head

And on my 18th birthday we got that chain tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof

Talk about our future like we had a clue

Never plan that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in other life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my Johnny Cash

Never one, we got the other, we made a pact

Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the blues

It's time to face the music, I'm longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one

The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine, no

Can't replace you with a million rings, no

I should've told you what you meant to me, whoa

'Cause now I pay the price

In another life I would be your girl

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

And in another life, I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got away