安顺前，"末日"后

          最近，猫咪的压力可说升到有史以来的最高点。进入了paeds里以凶闻名的医生的团队，和我不太喜欢的人同组，又很不幸的要在第一个星期做PRHO...意即需要知道、并present所有在那医生名下的病人状况，Posting都还没开始的时候就要cover bed...之后发生更糟糕的事情...我发现我们的组长并不如我想象中那么无邪，常常暗箭伤人；而且在我oncall当晚竟然没有病人，我的PRHO报告没了着落。同时，我那善忘得可以的头脑，又常常出卖了我不够努力的事实。

          这一切一切让我非常烦恼、疲累。每天由医院回到房间，都可说是瘫痪在床上。还好有我的他耐心陪伴，不时拨电为我加油打气。虽然我经常是在很累很累的情况下和他通电，有时还会不小心睡着...>_< 对不起咯~

          除此以外，我发现自己的健康也似乎有点问题...也许是在反映我的压力已经高到爆表了吧。害怕但又没时间去找医生看看...懊恼啊~

          不过猫咪还是会撑下去的~为了将来，为了自己遥远（与现在念的科系相差颇远）的梦想，他的梦想...要保持愉快的心境，平静的头脑！只要清楚自己要的是什么，应该不会有很大的问题。要是有问题，也只是一个让我们跨越的围栏，让我们锻炼自己的机会。

          好友们都各有各的烦恼。有大有小，内容各异。只能说，我的耳朵是随时候命的...也许不能为你们解忧，但至少能为你们分忧。我们一起加油啊，大家。

          冬至过了，所谓的玛雅人日历最后一天也安然的度过了...当天的我oncall...到深夜才和朋友去吃麦记...没吃到妈妈想做给我们吃的汤圆，有点小难过。不过没关系..很快又会回家咯 =) 明天出发到安顺医院，为我的路程安全祷告吧。 

给自己

一个人的心境，很大的程度上决定他看待事物的眼界。

若心境是开阔而舒坦，就算环境多不堪、多让人身不由己，

我们依然能仰起头接受挑战，而且可以过我们想要的生活。

续 夏目友人帐 片尾曲 - 爱你

吶~    可不可以

可不可以再聽我多說幾句？

吶~    可不可以

可不可以讓我再任性一次？

那句彷彿轉瞬即逝的話語

你可願對我說一次？

我愛你 我愛你

直到天荒地老也永不變心

就算你笑我太傻

我也好想聽你對我說一次

短短一句我愛你

做起來其實並非那麼容易

只願自己今後能好好愛你

對著天空 默默許下心願

吶~ 試著了解彼此

卻總是發現更多不解之處

懷著截然不同的兩具身軀

我們能做的就是唯有盡力抱在一起

有你陪伴 如此而已

我的整個世界就煥然一新

就連原本單調的風景 在我眼中也變得鮮豔美麗

不知不覺 我們的手已經牽到一起一同走下去

不知自己是否有好好愛你？

對著天空 悄悄提出疑問

若有一天我們終究要各奔東西

只要曾經愛過你  我就心滿意足

總有一天我們會知曉離別之意

我願與你約定  一同走向明天

我愛你  我愛你

直到天荒地老也永不變心

就算你笑我太傻

我也好想聽你對我說一次

短短一句我愛你

做起來其實並非那麼容易

只願自己今後能好好愛你

對著天空 默默許下心願

對著天空 默默許下心願

Coldplay - Fix You (Boyce Avenue feat. Tyler Ward acoustic cover)

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Always loved this song a lot, and Boyce Avenue made such a great cover of it...Heart wrenching, touching, warming at the same time. Its a masterpiece to say the least. Chris Martin seemed to have poured all his heart into making this song for his wife Gwyneth Paltrow. 

Times like These

I start wondering, at times
Whether It's all a delusion.
Whether It's a make believe 

The feeling
It just keeps engulfing
eating away bit by bit 
until there's nothing left

Christina Aguilera - Fighter

After all you put me through

You'd think I'd despise you

But in the end I wanna thank you

'Cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you

Thinking that you were true

Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff

Time is up, 'cause I've had enough

You were there by my side

Always down for the ride

But your joy ride just came down in flames

'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmm hmm

After all of the stealing and cheating

You probably think that

I hold resentment for you

But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong

'Cause if it wasn't for all

That you tried to do

I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through

So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Never saw it coming

All of your backstabbing

Just so, you could cash in on a good thing

Before I'd realized your game

I heard you're going 'round

Playin' the victim now

But don't even begin feelin' I'm the one to blame

'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies

Guess you're wanting to hurt me

But that won't work anymore

No more, uh uh, it's over

'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture

I wouldn't know how to be this way now

And never back down

So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I know

Turn out to be unjust so cruel?

Could only see the good in you

Pretended not to see the truth

You tried to hide your lies

Disguise yourself through

Living in denial

But in the end you'll see

You won't stop me

I am a fighter

(I'm a fighter)

I ain't gonna stop

(I ain't gonna stop)

There is no turning back

I've had enough

Makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget

But I, I remember

Yes I remember

I'll remember

Thought I would forget

But I remember

Yes I remember

I'll remember

Makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

So thanks for making me a fighter

Made me learn a little bit faster

Made my skin a little bit thicker

Makes me that much smarter

So thanks for making me a fighter

呐喊

想

找个没人的地方

大声的

用尽全力的

呐喊

把心中的

郁闷

难过

委屈

怒气

一切一切

释放出来

其实猫咪心里

日积月累

装满了好多好多的不愉快

瓶口都快不够装了

可是

哑巴吃黄连

有口难言

因为

始终是自己修养不够

猫咪

撑住啊

别被情绪主宰

反之

要做情绪的主人

加油加油

Lady Antebellum - Dancin' Away With My Heart

I finally asked you to dance on the last slow song

Beneath that moon that was really a disco ball

I can still feel my head on your shoulder

And hoping that song would never be over

I haven't seen you in ages

Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are

For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful

And dancing away with my heart

I brushed your curls back so I could see your eyes

And the way you moved me was like you were reading my mind

I can still feel you lean in to kiss me

I can't help but wonder if you ever miss me

I haven't seen you in ages

Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are

For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful

And dancing away with my heart

You headed off to college at the end of that summer

And we lost touch

I guess I didn't realize even at the moment we lost so much

I haven't seen you in ages

Sometimes I find myself wondering where you are

For me you'll always be eighteen and beautiful

And dancing away with my heart

Nah nah nah nah (x3)

Away with my heart

Nah nah nah nah (x3)

执着无用

如果难过解决不了什么

那为什么难过它不肯停止

原来有些人

比任何事物都难以打动

投桃报李

不一定是定律

也许我真的不懂人情世故

但不代表

我能平淡如水

接受一切

只能说

我不能取悦所有人

别人也不是生来就该考虑我的感受

所以

认了吧

缘分这东西不能强求

何必执着于不能掌握的事情

原来，我是在意的。

浪子心声by许冠杰

这首歌历经那么多年的人、事、物， 还是那么动人心弦...

人生就那么几十年...又何必那么执著？

只要心是安定沉稳的，无论什么逆境都不必害怕...

难分真与假　人面多险诈

几许有共享荣华

檐畔水滴不分差

无知井里蛙　徒望添声价

空得意目光如麻

谁料金屋变败瓦

命里有时终须有

命里无时莫強求

雷声风雨打　何用多惊怕

心公正白璧无瑕

行善积德最乐也

人比海里沙　毋用多牵挂

君可见漫天落霞

名利息间似雾化

君可見漫天落霞

名利息间似雾化

莫名的复杂

          知道成绩即将揭晓时，猫咪是在外头陪伴马麻。整个人紧张得刚买的食物，而且还是猫咪最喜欢吃的零嘴，都没心机去理会。直到消息传来，打开信息的那瞬间我几乎要晕倒~还好结果是我喜见的 >_<   


          就这样，懵懵懂懂的进入第五年...想到这里，猫咪此刻的心情，其实不喜不悲...更多的，是复杂莫名的感觉...心头觉得越是沉重。那责任的担子，更重了...家人的希望，更大了...要回头，更难了。


          想起我常常劝好友一定要坚持...突然觉得坚持两个字，说时容易，做时真的好难啊。有时觉得自己只不过是为自己打了一剂麻醉药，才能麻木的接受一切；更挖掉了自己的双眼，盲目的打了一场又一场自己不想打的仗，也不懂这一切为了什么。就是像头盲了的大象，只知道向前乱冲乱撞...


          原谅我的怪异。在别人都开开心心的时候，我心里竟是这番灰暗的景象。真的希望上帝能给我提示...告诉我，为什么要让我进入这一行。天资没别人好，待人处事也较人差劲...只怕出来不但帮不了人，还会害了人啊。

Mama's Song by Carrie Underwood

Touching song...Miss my mama so much =)

Mama you taught me to do the right things

So now you have to let your baby fly

You've given me everything that I will need

To make it through this crazy thing called life

And I know you watch me grow up and only want whats best for me

And I think I found the answer to your prayers

And he is good, so good

He treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps

No he's never gonna leave

So dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

Mama theres no way you'll ever lose me

And giving me away is not goodbye

As you watch me walk down to my future, I hope tears of joy are in your eyes

Cuz he is good, so good

He treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps

No he's never gonna leave

So dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

And when I watch my little baby grow I'll only want whats best for her

And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers

And that she'll say

He is good, so good

He treats your little girl like a real man should

He is good, so good, he makes promises he keeps

No he's never gonna leave

So dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

Mama dont you worry about me

Dont you worry about me

ET by Katy Perry

You're so hypnotizing

Could you be the devil? Could you be an angel?

Your touch magnetizing

Feels like I am floating, leaves my body glowing

They say be afraid

You're not like the others, futuristic lover

Different DNA

They don't understand you

You're from a whole other world

A different dimension

You open my eyes

And I'm ready to go, lead me into the light

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me

Infect me with your love and

Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me

Wanna be a victim

Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien

Your touch so foreign

It's supernatural

Extraterrestrial

You're so supersonic

Wanna feel your powers, stun me with your lasers

Your kiss is cosmic

Every move is magic

You're from a whole other world

A different dimension

You open my eyes

And I'm ready to go, lead me into the light

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me

Infect me with your love and

Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me

Wanna be a victim

Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien

Your touch so foreign

It's supernatural

Extraterrestrial

This is transcendental

On another level

Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wavelength

And be there when you vibrate

For you I'll risk it all

Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me

Infect me with your love and

Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me

Wanna be a victim

Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien

Your touch so foreign

It's supernatural

Extraterrestrial, extraterrestrial, extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien

Your touch so foreign

It's supernatural

Extraterrestrial

平凡相依by丁噹

我没有万人倾心

也不是那么聪明

总爱得非常努力

却往往伤得不轻

一个人漂流不定

不懂看寻常风景

直到遇见了你我才喜欢自己

不再讨好谁的心

不再刻意去证明

不再让欲望 淹没了真心

我们不曾最美丽

也不曾奢望奇迹

不要太美丽 要平凡相依

不要太美丽 要平凡相依

当回忆慢慢安静

悲伤越来越轻盈

人生难免有一些

未曾完成的事情

有一天梦也老去

只剩爱形影不离

重来一次我的选择仍会是你

不再讨好谁的心

不再刻意去证明

不再让欲望 淹没了真心

我们不曾最美丽

也不曾奢望奇迹

不要太美丽 要平凡相依 ~

不再讨好谁的心

不再刻意去证明

有你陪着我 到云淡风轻

天空烟火太美丽

绚烂后只剩灰烬

不要太美丽 要平凡相依

当回忆慢慢安静

悲伤越来越轻盈

人生难免有一些

未曾完成的事情

有一天梦也老去

只剩爱形影不离

重来一次我的选择仍会是你

不要太美丽 要平凡相依

For the Love of Food...

Love is enjoying food and becoming fatties together  XD

Getting fat together is not a bad idea...hahaha

If I can be cute when I'm fat, that is...

Ikea is famous for its furniture, but I love Ikea for its FOOD~

Yummy-licious Swedish meatballs 

Paired with thick cream sauce and lingonberry jam 

Sounds weird pairing something salty with sweet jam, 

But it tastes heavenly!

and the plus point: nice melt-in-your-mouth-fries =)

Gravlax cured salmon

one of my fav seafoods...SALMON~~

om nom nom..=p

Apple pie...

This is not the exact picture of Ikea apple pie though..

I think the apple chunks were not seasoned enough or something...

It tasted somewhat "raw"..haha...

Another thing I love about dining at Ikea:

The coffee can be refilled without limit~!

Perfect for a coffee junkie like me. teehee.

                                                                         p/s:

                                                                             =)  

Glass

After long waiting hours, I was subjected to another round of tests. 

I must say the stress is immeasurable at times.

Juggling health and academics can be a very taxing thing...

With exams around the corner, 

and realizing the inadequate merits to enable myself to stay in the hostel...

With those endless datelines to meet...

I just hope I won't break before it ends. 

我不愿让你一个人by五月天

你说呢 明知你不在 还是会问
空气 却不能代替你 出声
习惯 像永不愈合 的固执伤
一思念就撕裂灵魂

把相片 让你能保存 多洗一本
毛衣 也為你准备多 一层
但是 你孤单时刻 安慰的体温
怎么为你多留一份？

我不愿让你一个人 一个人在人海浮沉
我不愿你独自走过 风雨的 时分
我不愿让你一个人 承受这世界的残忍
我不愿眼泪陪你到 永恒

你走后 爱情的遗迹 像是空城遺落
你杯子手套和 笑声
最后 你只带走你 脆弱和单纯
和我最放不下的人
也许未來 你会找到 懂你疼你 更好的人
下段旅程 你一定要 更幸福丰盛

我不愿让你一个人 一个人在人海浮沉
我不愿你独自走过 风雨的 时分
我不愿让你一个人 承受这世界的残忍
我不愿眼泪陪你到 永恒

你说呢 明知你不在 还是会问
只因 习惯你滿足的 眼神
只是 我最后一個 奢求的可能
只求你有快乐人生

只求命运 带你去一段 全新的旅程
往幸福的天涯飞奔
別回头就往前飞奔
请忘了我还 一个人

诺亚方舟by五月天

再见 草莓甜甜圈 街角咖啡店 落下雨点

再见 黑白老照片 回忆电影院 埋进地面

再见 我们初识的那个公园

那天是谁先吻了谁 被谁遗忘的秋千

再见 那么多名车名表名鞋

最后我们只能带走 名为回忆的花园

如果要告别 如果今夜就要和一切告别

如果你只能打一通电话 你会拨给谁

晚安 鹦鹉和孔雀 花豹和人类 望着海面

晚安 底片和唱片 沉浮在浪间 就像诗篇

晚安 自由女神漂到华尔街

我们在甲板上摸到 杜拜塔顶的塔尖

晚安 海豚跃出西藏的屋檐

原来幻想中的这天 会比幻想更唯美

还是要告别 还是放弃海拔以下的世界

你会装进什么回忆纪念 在行李里面

终于要告别 终于没有更多的明天要追

你有什么遗憾依然残缺 还没有完美

当彗星燃烧天边 陨石像雨点

当辐射比阳光还要炽烈

当爱变得浓烈 当每段命运 更加壮烈

当永远变成一种遥远 当句点变成一种观点

让人类终于变成同类

勇敢的告别 勇敢地向过去和未来告别

告别每段血缘身分地位 聪明或愚昧

最后的告别 最后一个心愿是学会高飞

飞在不存在的高山草原 星空和蓝天

让诺亚方舟航向了海平线

让诺亚方舟航向了换日线

让诺亚方舟航向了天际线

让诺亚方舟航向了无限